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Chinese Views on Tibet: "Tibet -- Her Pain, My Shame"

June 4, 2008

by Tang Donhang
Tibet Custom (UK)
June 2, 2008 @ 09:04 am BST

For more than a decade, I have frequently entered Tibet and often
stayed there for a long time, traveling or working. I have met all
kinds of Tibetans, from youngsters on the streets, folk artists,
herders on the grasslands, mystic doctors in mountain villages, to
ordinary cadres in state agencies, street vendors in Lhasa, monks and
cleaners in monasteries, artists and writers...Among those Tibetans I
have met, some frankly told me that Tibet was a small country several
decades ago, with its own government, religious leader, currency and
military; some stay silent, with a sense of helplessness, and avoid
talking with me, a Han Chinese, afraid this is an awkward subject.
Some think that no matter what happened, it is an historical fact
that Chinese and Tibetans had a long history of exchanges with each
other, and the relationship must be carefully maintained by both
sides. Some were angered by the railway project, and by those roads
named "Beijing Road," "Jiangsu Road," "Sichuan-Tibet road," but
others accept them happily. Some say that you (Han Chinese) invest
millions in Tibet but you also got what you wanted and even more;
some say you invest in the development but you also destroy, and what
you destroy is exactly what we treasure...What I want to say here is
that no matter how different these people are, they have one thing in
common: They have their own view of history, and a profound religious belief.

For anyone who has been to Tibet, he/she should sense such a
religious belief among Tibetans. As the matter of fact, many are
shocked by it. Such attitude has carried on throughout their history,
and is expressed in their daily lives. This is a very different
value, especially compared with those Han Chinese who have no
beliefs, and now worship the cult of money. This religious belief is
what Tibetans care about the most. They project this belief onto the
Dalai Lama as a religious persona.

For anyone who has been to Tibet, it should not be strange to see the
"common Tibetan scene": Is there any Tibetan who does not worship him
(the Dalai Lama)? Is there any Tibetan unwilling to hang up his photo
in his own shrine? (These photos are smuggled back in from abroad,
secretly copied and enlarged, not like those Mao portraits printed by
the government that we Han Chinese once had to hang up.) Is there any
Tibetan who wants to verbally disrepect the Dalai Lama? Is there a
Tibetan who does not want to see him? Is there any Tibetan who does
not want to present Hada [white welcoming scarf] to him?

Other than those voices that the rulers want to hear, have we ever
heard the Tibetans? full, real voices? Those Han Chinese who have
been in Tibet, now matter if one is a high official, government
cadre, tourist or businessman, have we all heard their real voices,
which are silenced, but are still echoing everywhere?

Is this the real reason that all monasteries in Tibet are forbidden
from hanging up the Dalai Lama?s picture? Is this the reason that all
work units have officials to check in every household and to punish
those who hang up his picture? Is this the reason that the government
has people to stop those believers on the pilgrimage path on every
religious celebration day? Is this the reason for the policy barring
government employees from having their children study in Dharamsala;
otherwise, they will be fired and their house will be taken away? Is
this the reason that at all sensitive times, government officials
will hold meetings in monasteries, to force monks to promise to
"support the Party?s leadership" and "Have no relations with the
Dalai splitist cliques"? Is this the reason we refuse to negotiate,
and constantly use dehumanizing language to humiliate him? After all,
isn?t this the very reason to reinforce the "common Tibetan scene,"
making this symbol of nationality more holy?...

Why can?t we sit down with the Dalai Lama who has abandoned calls for
"independence" and now advocates a "middle way," and negotiate with
him with sincerity, to achieve "stability" and "unity" through him?
Because the power difference of the two sides is too big. We are too
many people, too powerful: Other than guns and money, and cultural
destruction and spiritual rape, we do not know other ways to achieve "harmony."

This group of people who believe in Buddhism because they believe in
cause and effect and transmigration of souls, oppose anger and
hatred, developed a philosophy that Han nationalists will never be
able to understand. Several Tibetan monk friends, just the
"troublemaker monk" type that are in the monasteries explained to me
their view on "independence": "actually, we may well have been ethnic
Han in a previous incarnation, and in our next incarnation we might
well become ethnic Han. And some ethnic Han in a previous life may
well have been Tibetan or may become Tibetan in their next life.
Foreigners or Chinese, men or women, lovers aand enemies, the souls
of the world transmigrate without end. As the wheel turns, states
arise and die, so what need is there for independence?" This kind of
religion, this kind of believer, can one ever think that they would
be easy to control? Yet there is a paradox here: if one wants them to
give up the desire for independence, then one must respect and
protect their religion.

Not long ago, I read some posts by some radical Tibetans on an online
forum about Tibet. These posts were roughly saying: "We do not
believe in Buddhism, we do not believe in karma. But we have not
forgotten that we are Tibetan. We have not forgotten our homeland.
Now we believe the philosophy of you Han Chinese: Power comes out of
the barrel of a gun! Why did you Han Chinese come to Tibet? Tibet
belongs to Tibetans. Get out of Tibet!"

Of course behind those posts, there are an overwhelming number of
posts from Han " patriots." Almost without exception, those replies
are full of words such as "Kill them!" "Wipe them out!" "Wash them
with blood!" "Dalai is a liar!" - those "passions" of the worshippers
of violence that we are all so familiar with.

When I read these posts, I feel so sad. So this is karma.

In the last week, after I put down the phone which cannot reach
anyone on the the other end, when I face the information black hole
caused by internet blockage, even I believe what Xinhua has said -
strangely I do believe this part: There were Tibetans who set fire to
shops and killed those poor innocent Han Chinese who were just there
to make a living. And I still feel extremely sad. Since when were
such seeds planted? During the gunshots of 1959? During the massive
destruction during the Cultural Revolution? During the crackdown in
1989? During the time we put their Panchen Lama under house arrest
and replaced him with our own puppet? During those countless
political meetings and confessions in the monasteries? Or during the
time when a seventeen-year-old nun was shot on the magnificent snowy
mountain, just because she wanted to see the Dalai Lama?.....

Or during numerous moments which seem trivial but which make me
ashamed: I was ashamed when I saw Tibetans buy live fish from Han
fish sellers on the street and put them back in the Lhasa river; I
was ashamed when I saw more and more Han beggars on the streets of
Lhasa-even beggars know it is easier to beg in Tibet than in Han
areas; I felt ashamed when I saw those ugly scars from mines on the
sacred mountains in the morning sunlight; I felt ashamed when I heard
the Han Chinese elite complain that the Chinese government has
invested so many millions of yuan, that economic policy favors
Tibetans, and that the GDP has grown so fast, so, "What else do these
Tibetans want?"

Why can?t you understand that people have different values? While you
believe in brainwashing, the power of a gun and of money, there is a
spiritual belief that has been in their minds for thousands of years
and cannot be washed away. When you claim yourselves as "saviors of
Tibetans from slavery society," I am ashamed for your arrogance and
your delusions. When military police with their guns pass by me in
the streets of Lhasa, and each time I am there I can see row upon row
of military bases... yes, I, a Han Chinese, feel ashamed.

What makes me feel most ashamed is the "patriotic majority": You
people are the decedents of Qinshi Huangdi who knows only conquering
by killing; you are the chauvinists who rule the weak by force; you
are those cowards who hide behind guns and call for shooting the
victims; you suffer from Stockholm Syndrome; you are the
blood-thirsty crazies of an "advanced" culture of Slow slicing and
Castration. You are the sick minds waving the "patriotic" flag. I
look down on you. If you are Han Chinese, I am ashamed to be one of you.

Lhasa is on fire, and there are gunshots in Tibetan areas in Sichuan
and Qinghai. Even I believe this- actually, I do believe this part of
the facts. In those "patriotic" posts which shout "Kill them!" "Wipe
them out!" "Wash them with blood!" "Dalai is a liar!" I saw the
mirror image of those Tibetan radicals. Let me say that you people
("patriotic youth") are Han chauvinists who destroy thousands of
years of friendship between Han and Tibetan people; you are the main
contributors to the hatred between ethnic groups. You people do not
really "highly support" the authority; rather, you people are in
effect "highly supporting" "Tibetan independence."

Tibet is disappearing. The spirit which makes her beautiful and
peaceful is disappearing. She is becoming us, becoming what she does
not want to become. What other choice does she have when facing the
anxiety of being alienated? To hold onto her tradition and culture,
and revive her ancient civilization? Or to commit suicidal acts which
will only add to Han nationalists? bloody, shameful glory?

Yes, I love Tibet. I am a Han Chinese who loves Tibet, regardless of
whether she is a nation or a province, as long as she is so
voluntarily. Personally, I would like to have them (Tibetans) belong
to the same big family with me. I embrace relationships which come
self-selected and on equal footing, not controlled or forced, both
between peoples and nations. I have no interest in feeling
"powerful," to make others fear you and be forced to obey you, both
between people and between nations, because what?s behind such a
"feeling" is truly disgusting. I have left her (Tibet) several years
ago, and missing her has become part of my daily life. I long to go
back to Tibet, as a welcomed Han Chinese, to enjoy a real friendship
as equal neighbor or a family member.

(This article was posted on 28 April 2008 in www.chinadigitaltimes.net

- Tang Donhang, (born in 1965) is a poet and documentary filmmaker
from Chengdu, Sichuan. She has made several documentaries in and
about Tibet since the 1990s. She has published the above article on
her own blog (hosted outside of China), partially translated by CDT.
The writer was moved to Israel from Chengdu in 2005, and is currently
teaching Chinese language at Tel Aviv University. The views expressed
in this column are those of the writer, not necessarily those of the
Central Tibetan Administration)
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